believe in me

the believing in some one, the trust and unconditionality
are always there in the heart of your friends
until they find something in you that they cannot
fight with, that they have no foundation in criticizing
because their knowledge in that field is void.
true friends are there for you when you are healthy
when you are about to die, when you laugh...
I have come to find that there are not much of those
in my life, however they are exactly who I thought they were
I am unconditional but not only to those who are to me.
I am also to unconditional to some of those who can leave
me but that is just the way I am.
I know that there are people who no matter what you do
for them will never stood up for you, but I know that
the love that those people can give does not compare to
the love that I hold for them however I don't hold grudge
because I understand and accept how those people are.
some one can undersand me now. and those people are not
exactly what I call intimate friends, are only people
that my life gaved me because they were exactly what I needed
and all that I wanted, a person that with only the looking in
his eyes could understand all that I feel and all that I want
him to know that I need to tell him but I cannot.
I was able to find my "too much to ask" and I cannot be happier
then I found him at this poin in my life.
I, as many cultures say, found my other halvs, which are more like
missing parts of my soul and my mind, living in other people
living in those who a person would kill to find and
foundable in those who a simple woman would die to see.
I tend to say to people that nothing is impossible however
not always felt that it was completely true, now I know
that finding the one that can undersand you with the look,
that, talking to your other halvs can be more probable then make
your life friend understand how you feel,
that with a major issue you can open a door that will lead you
to places that you never even dreamed of
Finding that three people in my life was the greatest thing
that happened to me in a very long time, I know that those
three know who they are, and I know that they totally understand
what I am saying.
I assure to my longest friend that I can understand what she says
however everything taken from ignorance and ununderstanding it is
as bad as poisson to our hearts.
quoting one of my halvs, everything in excess is harmful to people
even breathing excessfuly is harmful to our lives...
and as the second and last quotation here, not even poison can be
that harmful to a person's body...
When Napoleon lost thw Battle of Whaterloo, he self exiliated
and he decided to took is own life... for making so happen
he decided to took poison so when he saw what the dose was,
he took five times more that dose, because he thought that his
body was extraspecial, and that, a little dose like that, would
not do a thing to him, after this, Napoleon's body rejected such
an amount of poison and he didn't die.
Sometimes a person's Ego is stronger then any power or force in the
planet.