dye

I had this weird dream...

where I mixed 7.46 or 7.43 dye

with 1 dye... so, I got to think

those colors mixed make no sense

but those colors separately are the

hair color of my two best friends

now does that mean something ?

or it just means they will be on my head

forever?

I never dream with numbers you see...

so I thought why not, this is weird

even more then any other dream

I've been having lately...

now I wonder why if this is supposed

to really make me think why numbers?

this could get really complicated so

here I invite you to stop reading it...

numbers were always easy to read

were the only thing that I never had to think

although, I never really liked them, it was too

simple to me, there wasn't really a challenge.

I am not gonna give an adjective to this because

I don't know whether is good or not...

but people to me were like numbers...

were so, until a couple people...

those people that make my life have sense

because I can't figure out... even though

I know their reactions, I rationalize their feelings

and their relationships with me, there is always

something else, something I can't bring my self

to figure out of them...

there were always mysteries but numbers, as so

people weren't to me, it was always very simple

however, this mixed game of numbers and human beings

might have something behind to teach me... maybe

that is what I need to do with my life...

my dreams are getting darker and darker, and also

so abstract it is even hard for me to follow

when I am in the dream, not even gonna explain

how hard it is for me to make sense out of them

once I am awake again...

dreams have been always something else for me

a way to know ahead a lot of things,

the things and ideas I am most afraid of

and a way to tell myself everything I want

but I won't accept out loud.

for some reason, the "possible stories" in my dreams

have left a few weeks ago, and now

I can barely wake myself from a dream,

even though I know I am dreaming, and it is a nightmare

I just can't or maybe... do I really want to wake up ?

true, in writing sounds a little too crazy even for me

but writing it is the only way I can have a little sense out of it.