revenge

This feels like a revenge for me leaving
this is you showing me that you don't care
but also that you are certainly glad to leave first
because that way I will "feel what is like"
the secret desire for me to fail leaving
and the lack of interest and willing to do anything
anything for me anymore, from the most simple thing
to something hard and complicated.
the "do it yourself" kick like I don't know how to
and the adding of more and more stupid stuff to the routine
so there is nothing else available on your time to just be
or simple be around...

this look like the worse 35 days left to anything
that I've ever been on... I just hope it doesn't turn
into just one month away like it usually does
and you are actually gone for good, as the pain
in the ass your mother is I hope to solve that
in the next few weeks ...