for this year to be our 366 days

There were a few things that I would like to forget this year, however I am not going to...
There were a few people there for me no matter what, and those are the ones that are still with me
the fact of realizing that your so called best friend is only using you and doesn't really matter what you say or think, the point in which I had to start holding things back from her, so I won't hear her wine about how I make mistakes more then once when she should just shut up and listen to me, as I have for the last three years.
The fact that even though I am a paranoid freak the person that knows me less, or actually, for less time, is the one that I can trust the most, because he is always there to break my fall, and when it was his turn to be strong for the both of us he was, he didn't walk away from me and understood why I was so afraid of everything, and hold me tight.
Making my dream closer to become true, with the love and support of my mom is long gone, she is only saying that she will give me money to achieve it, let's hope that is not as fake as her actual feelings about me and him leaving...
I was able to bond with people I'd left aside for stupid believes or just for the sake of leaving things for later, and those were amazing days. Also as is usual in me I saw lies and deceptions long before they actually happened, but this time, I didn't act on them, for once I'll just let everyone but the people that care for me to fall by the same mistakes, as is their choice to do so.
I realized that the simple fact of growing up teared apart something I thought it would last forever.
Also found people... outsiders to my family that treat me like one of their own, telling me and showing me they care.
I found a new passion for work, even though as always incompetent people with power screwed it up.
And finally I spent a lot of time wondering if you were gonna leave me, if this was another mistake, turns out this was my first good choice in a long time, I understood recently and stronger then ever how and I even remember specific moments in which people tried to tear us apart, but couldn't,  and I also saw that the reason they were unable to separate us, is because we believe in each other, and I am happy to believe in you.
And every time you doubt you can do anything just hold the wings in your hands, and know I believe in you and in us.