Admiration

I have different kinds of admiration for all my friends, however the most present at the moment is the one taking on two college careers at the same time, after half a lifetime of being afraid she wouldn't be able to, which in my humble opinion, she is more than capable, but fears tame our most simple dreams quite often, so I can see her point.

I admire her even more now, as we're both reluctant adults, and she is doing something I'm still afraid to tackle, and in seeing her charging fearlessly(ish) into her assignments, not only I am awed by her, but also inspired, yet I can't help wondering if when my time comes, I will have the same fervor for it, or if I will sluggishly drag myself through college, maybe I'll smugly assume it will be easy and it will crush me and test my frustration threshold beyond my wildest fears...

Even as I helped my brain stay active a lot, studying is never the same as simply reading, but as she gave me even another reason to do it: I owe it to myself to do it, and somehow I will.