getting closer to the two years

you told me once, that as long as we

cry we KNOW we are alive

the suffering that everything gave us

will be enough to say, I am alive

and I have something to fight for.

all I have right now is you, is that

certain love, toxic twisted love

that pure and unconditional love that

we share that will keep us alive

even though I should be calmed

I can't be, I know is because of me

all those fears that you are fighting against

so I can be easy and sure of everything

all those fears of yours I am fighting against

so you can be sure you can make it through it all

and there is something else out there for you

that nobody can stop everything we plan.

all those things, that we learned together

I wanna remind you once more, on this day

that nobody could keep me away of the worse moment

of my life like you did.

I'd like to keep believing that I did something alike for you

too, I know we started kind of shallow, just going out

talking about stupid things... but after all those things

were over, those meaningless things were all talked out,

it came out everything inside, all those things you were afraid

off the most, all those stories that you were maybe embarrassed to tell

all those little stupid things that made you who YOU are,

and that person perfect... perfect a couple more times

even though you don't always see it... the person perfect

for me to trust in, for me to plan with...

I'd be part of your soul forever, as you will forever

be part of mine. those things cannot be changed,

it doesn't matter to me the little differences

what I know for a fact is that no matter what

I can always count on you, as you can count on me

my family isn't quite as this I described... but I guess

a family is supposed to be this way, and because of this

and only this, you are and will always be the closest

thing to a family, a brother, I can ever have.

our blood, souls, minds, lives are ahead showing us the way

and beyond all complications, I know we will make our path

the best way we think. I know you'll back me up, and I like to think

you also know I'll back you up as well.

thank you for sharing your deepest secrets, your hidden fears and affairs,

thank you for letting me share mine with you, even though I'm not even

half way through them... thank you for showing me how to enjoy life in the most

toxic way, and in the purest way ever existing ...