please, please forgive me

maybe I had to get half way drunk to say this

but I can't stand see you talking about him

I can't bare the idea that he's more important

it is my biggest fear for that dependence to become

the strongest force within your heart..

It doesn't matter how many times you told me

nothing would change, after all this time, I still

don't believe a word you say...

maybe is just my fear, maybe is just reality

how can I be certain when you contradict yourself

all the time, even being with me isn't enough anymore

you're no longer comfortable, you don't care enough to

even surprise me anymore, you don't have the time I need

you don't share the same as we used to...

how come we used to live for each other and now

all we have are fights, struggling about me leaving

and all those unspoken words you said

everything is turning black and I can't find the light switch

there is nothing left there, maybe I have to leave and get away

maybe this breakup needed to happen for me to be completely free

but that's the thing, I don't wanna leave you here

I don't wanna be away, I always wanna be your first choice

the first person you come to when something is wrong

not the plan B, not anymore, I spent a lot of time that way

I won't let this happen to me again.

you are the person I loved the most, ever, nobody will be

as perfect and as necessary for me as you always will be.

maybe tonight I realize that our perfect relationship was a

projection of something better then I had before

but still not good enough for me to blindly believe in you

I am not sure how long I will be able to stand up to this

please show me everyday that there is nothing else but me

for what you'll die for, show me that as I love you

nobody else could love me like you seemed to love me

like you seem to understand everything I've been through

like I know how you suffer and I know all your paradoxes and

I am still by your side as the first day...

please tell me after I am gone you will still remember me

as the number one thing on your life, as that person that

gave you the strength to believe in yourself again

don't ever let my love for you vanish into the night

don't you ever let my heart suffer again

show me everyday that you love me that our friendship

is indeed more then just a friendship that we belong forever close

that even though we don't share the same blood, our bond is

more important then any other. Please let me, and make me believe that

we are really meant to grow together.