how can this be that all I have now are questions and doubts?
am I getting cold feet over a relationship-non-relationship?
I don't know what's better to believe if I am fooling myself
or if I am seeing too clear and I just don't wanna accept it?
maybe I wasn't really meant to walk this life with someone
or maybe I don't have the strength to loose someone again
but not only I feel him pulling away but I also see myself
pushing him away and I can't stop it and I can't understand
why I am doing this why I don't deserve someone like him
but why don't I why rationally I do and emotionally I don't?
I am sick and tired of asking demonstrations and also of
my own complains that seem to be completely mad
the moment I spoke them they don't make sense anymore...
I need to be away and alone or do I think I need that
because I can't get closer ? I don't want anymore questions
I need to find the answer to them before I go completely mad
or this is gonna end up killing me slowly.
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