like you don't try anymore

that's really it?
am I sick of you?
how can I have this
kind of mixed feelings
am I really away
of what made us
together once?
is this another
relationship that I need
to painfully end to
feel better about myself?
I can't help but wonder
if you and I could pass
this stage and enjoy
or if we're just never leaving
this awful place and this
will be another six months
of suffering to me?
have I gone from this point
to this point over and over again?
is it that it doesn't have a turn back?
you know what it feels to me? is like you don't try anymore
and that is really killing my soul