now

and to think I fooled myself into believing we were alike,
that we could ever grow into a strong alliance joining forces
to make each other fulfill dreams, and long lost hopes, or so we thought...
how did I dare to put my future in hands of whom doesn't understand its own
that has never seen beyond simple desires...
how did I give all my confidence to someone that doesn't even like itself...
that has never even showed a minute of self respect and inner peace...
through this pain I hope I can learn something, so this pain is channeled to a good goal
the one I've been putting out for years now, the one that wasn't even mine to delay
that's the problem when you let somebody else be your air, when you know it's gone
breathing will never be natural again, will be an exhausting job until you don't want to fight anymore
cause there's nothing left to fight about... nothing at all.
maybe this was the wake up call that I needed, I've always been kind of hard to teach with love
always looking for the most tortuous way to learn my lesson, being the one to carry the hardest kind of love, the one that not even the one I love with that strange energy, that was supposed to be clear at some point is not to him anymore... fear? the lack of sentiment is what hurts the most.