small moments

Tonight I miss so many things... 

so many small moments gone, 

many loved friends on my heart...

my sister's birthday, gone.

my best friend's birthday, passed.

my better half's birthday, flown...

now and every night I ask myself why,

I keep wondering if they are worth it...

I can't know for sure, but I keep looking 

for a place I feel at home... 

Home... I heard around, home is the place 

that when you leave it, you miss it, 

If that's to be taken for sure, I've never been home.

And I feel like I still need to find that place 

I miss them terribly, but I'm still lacking somewhere

to call my own, my home, my place in the world.

I missed so many things today...

our days together, just eating and laying.

Our endless nights with vodka and our voices...

Your eyes sown together with mine,

as we intertwined our souls forevermore...

Your understanding hugs... 

her hand on mine as we walked alone at night,

a little piece of me is with you, as I'll never, ever

stop missing you, no matter how long it's been.

There are so few things in my life that are certain,

but I am so happy to say that you three are one of those.

And miss you eternally for that very fact.